Returning

June 17, 2008

I have to apologize to all my readers and fellow blogging friends. Life got mentally difficult for me and I just didn’t know what to say about anything here. I still don’t know where I’m going with this blog anymore but in the interest of figuring it out…here are some thoughts.

My reviewers mentioned that I write about only my sexual experiences. I have to disagree to some degree. Yes, there is sex involved in a lot of my posts but it isn’t about sex. It’s about a journey into me. It’s about my finding out who I am through relationship experiences. Sex is a huge part of life. Since this blog is in the form of a journal, I write it as I wrote my journals long ago, focusing on the spectacle in my life, the very very good and very very bad times. Sex is right up there on both counts. It hits you in the core. When you open up to someone sexually, you learn a lot about you. So I’m arguing that my sexual journey IS my personal, emotional journey.

I’m dealing with a lot of those issues now.  Who am I emotionally, sexually? How do I exist alone? With someone else? How do I choose partners? How can I choose better partners?

Brody and I have had limited contact for the last few weeks. My questions have grown. I’ll write more about it later after I peruse what I already wrote about him. My mind is a mess.

Question for all of you…what are your thoughts on May/December romance? What’s good about it? Does it always have to end badly? Just tell me any thought you have on the topic. I’m struggling right now and in need of some clear headed ideas.

That’s all for now.

Just me…Marissa