January 19, 1992

I was working with my friend who had the Halloween bonfire party. The mall was dead. A guy walked in and said hi to her. I guess they had gone to high school together. Since we weren’t doing anything we talked to him for awhile.

He ended up asking for my phone number. I gave it to him rather reluctantly. I have sworn off men. It’s been three months and I am still not over the last one. Then this guy tells me he’s a truck driver, and is going through a divorce! OMG!!! I’m not a religious person but at that moment I wanted to whip out a rosary and ward off that evil!

The pain came flashing back to me. What am I doing? Why did I give him my number? He was nice to talk to I guess. He’s ok looking, not what I would call hot but not bad either. Maybe he’ll just be a friend. A friend I can handle. A boyfriend I can’t.

What was I thinking? What if he calls? Maybe he won’t and I won’t have to worry about it. I am so totally over men.

I can’t wait till the weekend. I’ll drink and dance and forget about my shit life! Marky Mark will give me some good vibrations! That’s about all the man I can stand…far away and untouchable…gettin my groove on on the dance floor is my speed right now.

Come on come on…

Just me…Marissa

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